I can’t believe it.

Am I making the right choice?

I’m scared.

Am I going to be okay?

This is going to be awesome.

I’m really excited.

Will I be able to make it?

I’m going to miss them.

I can’t wait to meet new people.

This could be a mistake.

This could be fate.

Is this really happening?

Is there no going back?

Do I have the will to go through with it?

I have to do this 100% without doubt.

Why do I feel nervous?

I don’t want to leave them behind.

I want to run away.

I need a change.

This is my chance.

I want something new.

I crave freedom.

I want a challenge.

I’m afraid of the possibilities.

I want to prove I can do it.

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Wow, it’s 2009. Can you believe it? I still find it kind of weird to be a product of the 90’s and realize how old I am. Hah.

Oh 2008, I knew thee well. Lots of hardships, lots of blessings.

In the past year I…

was broke.
was unemployed.
fell in love.
was heartbroken.
got over it.
fell in love again.
realized how not in love I really was.
became sad and lonely.
decided to not take things so seriously and personally.
became really happy and positive.
got back into banking.
got a steady paycheck once again.
rebuilt my savings.
got addicted to WoW.
made some new friends.
got a new digital camera.
said goodbye to Lola.
experienced some of the greatest disappointments one can in the span of one night out.
experienced some of the greatest successes one can in the same night.
was able to quit WoW cold turkey.
went on some horrible dates.
went on some awesome dates.
learned that 2+2=5.
paid off some credit cards.
made the decision to take control of my life.

And it wouldn’t be New Years without some resolutions though, right?

  • Get a new job (A must.)
  • Get my own place.
  • Keep in touch with my friends.
  • Update the blog more consistently.
  • Here’s a typical one: Go to the gym and get back in shape.
  • Stop bullshitting around and be more honest and straightforward.
  • Continue to make new friends.
  • Re-read the A Song of Ice and Fire books.
  • Learn at least one of these things.
  • Watch Gossip Girl already.

As the last post had noted, I already put my two weeks notice in at work. I’m leaving. I’m moving on. I’m ready to start something new and see what I can accomplish on my own. It’s looking to be an exciting year.